Friday, April 28, 2006
Happy Birthday, Kid!
April 28, 2006
Happy Birthday, Kid!
Today's just like any other day. Nothing "Whoa"-provoking happened today. Sabi ko nga, Like an ordinary day.
The thing is, I've increased my digits. That's just it. I've turned Sweet Sixteen. And, it doesn't suit me. I see no "sweetness" in it. I see no "sweet" associated with me. Or, that is what I think... Hehe. Patama ba ito?! Well, Past is Past. Haha. Ssshh.
Being old's not fun at all. So sad. I liked being a kid. I abso-fucking-lutely loved it. Hehe. In my mind and heart, I know, I am still one. Hehe. Wow. Lakas!
Yeah, yeah, say what you want. I don't care. Hehe. Kids don't care. Hehe.
Panay "hehe". This is too childish. Anyway, why the kid craze?, you may ask. I am currently searching the net for pop songs "covered" by punk bands. These songs really sound silly. Download all of them who covered Britney Spears's Hit Me Baby One More Time. Listen to them. They are funny, really! Hehe. Try it. Try also some Blink182 stuff. I kind-of heart them now. Hehe.
panay "hehe" na naman.
Serious... As I was rummaging through the contents of Ye Olde Limewire Box, I found this acoustic version of Taking Back Sunday's Cute Without the E. It sounds so sad. Depressing, really.. Lyrics:
Taking Back Sunday
Cute Without the E
Your lipstick, his collar.. don't bother Angel
I know exactly what goes on
When everything you'll get
is everything that you've wanted, princess
(well which would you prefer)
My finger on the trigger, or
(me face down, down across your floor)
Me face down, down across your floor
(me face down, down across your floor)
Well just so long as this thing's loaded
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinking,
this all was only wishful thinking
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinking,
this all was only wishful thinking
let's go...
Don't bother trying to explain Angel
I know exactly what goes on when you're on and
How about I'm outside of your window
(how about I'm outside of your window)
Watching him keep the details covered
You're such a sucker
(you're such a sucker) for a sweet talker, yeah
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinking,
this all was only wishful thinking
(the only thing that I regret is that I, I never let you hold me back)
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinking,
this all was only wishful thinking
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you'll never love me
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you'll never love me
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know...
Why can't I feel anything from anyone other than you?
Why can't I feel anything from anyone other than you?
And all of this was all your fault
And all of this
(Nothing's worse)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this, for this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind as something larger than life
(she'll destroy us all before she's through
and find a way to blame somebody else)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this, for this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind as something larger than life
(she'll destroy us all before she's through
and find a way to blame somebody else)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this, for this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind as something larger than life!
Reminds me of Bianca. I miss her. I like the song. I can relate to it. You should try it. Find the acoustic version. It's good. It makes me want to cry.
=)
april28 sensed inspiration at 11:47 PM.
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i love. i have loved. i will love.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Insecure
The chinese girl in PBB is so cute! I'm so friggin' insecure! And, she's MU with that chinese guy that's cute too. They are such a cute couple. But, I sure as hell wish that everything is not real. You know, them liking each other since I'm really crushing on that chinese guy. Hehe. I am selfish. Who has never been selfish when it comes to the love bug?!
Now, I feel so damned insecure. She's so perfect. She's so pretty. Compared to me. I am only the goddess of rejection, rather dejection. Sad story, isn't it? but, it's true. Wish I could change it though. How sad. I really, really need a good strong dose of optimism right now! Hay...
I feel so bad. I feel weak. I feel so useless. I do not intend to feel this way but this is just the way I feel. I'm not trying to be emo or anything. It's just... so sad. It's so sad when you feel insecure and hopeless.
Masakit kapag dumating na sa point na 'yun..
april28 sensed inspiration at 8:40 PM.
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I see a rising problem
Amf. I think there is something wrong with my blog. Shux. How would I deal with this?! Wait...
april28 sensed inspiration at 7:19 PM.
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april28 sensed inspiration at 6:22 PM.
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Impromptu
We went swimming yesterday at Cavite. I wasn't prepared to go there at that time since it was so impromptu. Imagine this, you are sleeping in the comfort of your own bed, then suddenly, someone knocks from your door and asks you if you want to go swimming. Wow. It's like, Hello, I'm not even "fully awake" yet. Hehe. It was all impromptu and I even asked myself, "why are we swimming?" Then, I remembered. It was my niece's birthday! Wow. Ok. SO, called her on the phone to confirm if it was really true. It was true, after all. The invatation is just too hard to turn down. The pool is calling me. I badly needed a break from my friggin' home anyway. Haha. And, beseide, I really wanted to go even if I wanted to sleep more. Hehe.
So, there I was, completely pumped up from all the excitement. I packed then headed outside. To my shock, my niece's friends were there! Wow. Sobrang impromptu ito! Am I the only one who doesn't know about this trip?! Well, we commuted our way to Cavite. It's ok for me. Anything to go out. There is the usual congestion on that corner thingie but other than that, the trip was ok. I was with my cousin so that means I have someone to talk to. As for my niece' friends, they were ok, I guess. Well, some of them are nice and the talked to me! Wow. I have never felt so old in my entire life!
The whole swimming was fun! I was totally afraid of the kiddie slide! I was so funny! I looked like a freak that day. But I had fun anyways! Hehe..
About today, today sucks! I feel so useless and hopeless! Cable sucks too! It's whacked! No One Tree Hill for me! Malas! Of all the days, Tuesday pa! Tsk.. Well, wish me good luck on my x-ray tomorrow. For some reason, I'm scared of them too. Haha. No, not really, I'm afraid there's going to be another thing or something else in that plate. Haha. *Noo..>_<*
april28 sensed inspiration at 11:21 PM.
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i love. i have loved. i will love.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Realizations from the Snake
I have consumed most of the waking hours of my life in one fruitful and exciting hobby, that is playing snake. Who would have thought that playing snake in the cellphone is enlightening!?
Well, for me, that is the case, I've really figured out some of life's essentials while going thru a round with the snake. A lot of lessons learned, I guess. In such a raucous place like ths world, in the quiet world of the snake, you can really ponder on things. I've had questions while that snake ate the tiny little dots. Most of them were really nonsense at first. But, as the times I play the game increased, I found myself thinking of different psychological things! Huwaw! I'm o a roll with the snake!
I guess I've learned that when you get to that moment wherein you're nearing your goal or ambition, you should really never stop working hard to reach it. Even if the goal is very near and is ready for you to take it, still work hard! Given the case that you stopped, there is still the possibility of that goal to slip through your mere hands. You've given the opportunity but when you realized that it is within your reach and you let yourself be ok with just that position(meaning, you stopped working hard), there is still the slightest chance of not getting your goal, of getting all your previous efforts wasted. It is really true that we must strive until we have not got that thing that we aimed for. I've learned that from the Snake when I didn't the tiny dot since "I know" that my score is enough to qualify for the Top Score. You know what, it's just 2 points away from it! It's really frustrating when you "know" but it doesn't turn out the way it's supposed to be.
I guess, I will strive from now on. Strive. Soar. Strive again. again? I believe it is within the maintenance of hardwork that makes the person, who does it, great. So again...
Strive. Soar. Strive again.
april28 sensed inspiration at 8:33 AM.
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i love. i have loved. i will love.
Saturday, April 22, 2006
First Post's First
This is not my first time to blog. But, don't be surprised of my poor writing ability. Believe me, I'm not that good. Haha..
My blog at blogdrive.com sucks.! I can't even update that blog! I think there is something wrong with this damned computer. Hehe. As always, the computer is the problem. Anyway, on with the problem, the computer couldn't open the "Create an Entry" Page in blogdrive. Sucks, I know. Well, I suddenly thought of blogger and well, it works here. As you can see, you are reading something right now.
But, actually, I am not saddened at all by this. Well, if I have a blog in Blogger, I'd have to delete the other one since it is of no more use to me. That is really not a problem, deleting a one-year old blog that is. The funny thing with this "deleting" is the timing. I need to revamp my life and leave whatever "remained alive" in my old blog. Haha. Truly, talk about good timing. Another funny thing is that, by today, the old blog is one year old! And, I'm deleting it! Haha! And, I'm starting this one at the same date! Cool, eh?!
About me. A totally inexperienced blogger since I've been on hiatus for some time now. I'm a bit of a slack when it somes to posting entries. Erm, I want to change that. Hopefully, it will change with this new one. Haha. Wish me luck on starting out anew.
april28 sensed inspiration at 7:11 AM.
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i love. i have loved. i will love.
